Thank you insomnia…..

I hated you when we first met. Seriously, I had no clue how to handle you or what to do with you. I’ll never forget all those nights in 2019 that you drove me to my breaking point. The dance would last sometimes 24, sometimes 48 and even up to 96 hours at a time. It took a minute before I learned you were really a mask for anxiety. True to the saying, you didn’t kill me, but you made me stronger.

Over the past two years, I’ve reflected time and time again on how much I’ve healed and grown in great part due to your persistence! You led me to this path of self discovery and development that seems to suit me well. You’ve continued to pop up now and again to remind me that there’s still so much work to be done. Thank you.

If it wasn’t for you, I don’t know what it would have taken to remind me of my love for reading! Some nights I think I really looked forward to your visits so I could head out to my reading nook with some tea and historical fiction. Oh! And how could I forget the Harry Potter novels!!! Real talk, I became a huge Potterhead thanks to you!

Let’s see, what else? Well, with regards to my yoga practice, grown leaps and bounds. There’s so much more that I connect with now within the subject. Prior to you showing up, it was more about the physical benefits of having a regular asana practice. Now, I’ve gone more inward. It’s less about focusing so much on my asana practice and beautiful poses, but more about how to use all of the principles of yoga to practice with more intention. It’s become so much more nourishing for my soul. Thank you.

Want to know what else I’m grateful for? Well, if it hadn’t been for you and the chronic nausea that had me in a downward spiral, I probably would have never sought out the help of a therapist. Now that is something that has truly changed my life for the better. The problem solver in me is endlessly intrigued by the greatest puzzle of all, my mind!

Last but not least, how could I forget Susie’s Real Talk! This journey has inspired me to tap into my creative brain in so many ways, but mainly through writing. Susie’s Real Talk was born in no small part due to the path you led me to. It’s been, at times, a tumultuous path. A path with many mountains to climb but the view from each summit is beautiful. Thank you for the lessons. Thank you for the hurt. I can only know what good feels like for having made it through the pain.

Until we meet again, insomnia, peace out…..